I guess this isn't really my first entry for this blog (i deleted all the old posts for Aug-Sept just five seconds ago) so I'm not gonna write those intro-first-entry-posts.. But yeah. I'm just gonna write whatever I want because I'll be the only person that'll read this.
Last night wasn't the best night for me. I pathetically cried for three hours straight.. For what reason? I don't know, I haven't felt this way in so long, just feeling like I don't have anyone at the moment I guess. I've been losing friends and I thought I could brush it off with that phrase "you gain some, you lose some" but it's not as easy haha. I did the most stupid thing, I promised myself I wouldn't ever do again too. It's fucking gross on my arm. And I spent another two hours just sitting on my bed in the dark thinking what it'd be like if I just .. died. People won't be laughing or bitching then, hey? Haha..
It's not helping that I was stupid enough to be tricked into something a couple of nights ago, so now I'm known as "slut" and "skank" to so many people.. Loading a tonne of bricks on the shit I already have hahha..
Summarising myself up, I'd be known as a slut/skank who is a shit friend at the moment. Lovely.
